This year of 2020 has taught me a lot. It pushed me to step out of my comfort zone, to grow and become more independent.
It started off amazing, I moved to Malaga for a few months and worked there as a photographer. I lived in a cute apartment just a short walk from the beach. I met so many amazing people that I’m so grateful for. I explored the beautiful Andalusia and had so many amazing photoshoots. I’ve never even traveled anywhere alone before, so packing up all my stuff and moving to another country was a huge step for me. I became so much more independent and I gained so much confidence.
Then, just one month and a half after I moved there the lockdown started. We were on total lockdown for 7 weeks. We were not allowed to leave our house even to go for a walk, just to go to the store once or twice per week. It definitely took a huge toll on my mental health as I’m sure it did on everyone. But on the other hand it allowed me to focus on myself. I started meditating to deal with the anxiety of being stuck in a foreign country with no way to get home. I also started journaling and thar helped me the most. Writing down all my feelings with no shame or fear of being judged, jusr for myself.
After those 7 weeks we were finally allowed to go out for walks in the morning and in the evening. I have never felt so happy in my life. Seeing the beach and other people enjoying the warm sun really gave me so much joy. I met up with my friends that were also stuck here with me and I was so happy to finally socialize with people. After the restaurants opened we went out for drinks and food and tried to catch up on all the missed opportunities before the lockdown. We had so much fun and I will forever be grateful to have met them and spend time with them in the beautiful Malaga.
Then at the end of May I finally managed to get a flight home. Or flights I should say. It was very expensive, but at that point I decided it was worth it. I had to spend the night at the Barcelona airport and for my flight to Frankfurt in the morning. I was so happy to see that Mcdonald’s was open at that airport as everything was closed in Barcelona and I needed a coffee and some food other than the snacks I brought along. After a few hours I boarded a packed flight to Zagreb where my dad came to pick me up and drove me home. I was so exhausted at that point and it felt like I was traveling for a week not just for about 27 hours. But I was so happy to finally arrive home to my family. They were worried like crazy and equally over the moon that I finally made it home.
I spent the summer in my hometown, trying to figure out what to do next. My plan was to take advantage of this year and travel as much as I could. I wanted to backpack through Asia for a few months but that wasn’t an option anymore. Me and my two friends went on a trip to Croatia for my birthday and I loved it so much, even if it was only for a few days. I also wanted to visit my friends in Greece but I had no idea what 2020 will bring so I decided to postpone that.
I had my final diploma presentation and graduated as a Bachelor in design in June 2020. After closing this chapter I was on the search for a new job and to become a responsible adult a bit sooner than expected. I sent out so many emails but barely got any response. Had a few interviews but no success. Then I moved to Ljubljana, hoping to get a job soon or I’d have to get another lame job just to get by. After about two months of actively searching for the perfect job I finally got what I wanted. I’m beyond grateful for this job as it it everything I wanted.
I can finally say I’ve achieved most of my goals for this year 2020 and I will surely continue to do so in the next year.
2020 has been a year of growth, self-reflection and becoming the best version of myself. I can say that I am much stronger and more confident than before and I have grown so much more in this one year than all the others combined. Even with everything that has happened this year, all the good and the bad things, this year was a strong push in the right direction for me.
I hope 2021 is the year we overcome the pandemic and come out stronger as a society and as individuals. Thank you for all the memories 2020, but I’m happy to move on to 2021.
I wish you all that 2021 brings you health, prosperity, abundance and peace. Happy New Year loves!