When I was still really young and also really stubborn, I thought I knew everything about everything. I was so confident that my way of thinking is the only right way and if anyone tried to doubt me or tell me I’m wrong I would still insist that I’m right.
Lately I’ve been thinking about myself and my personality a lot. I used to be really shy, always shut in my own little bubble and never really knew how to make friends. I bet I came across as bitchy and unfriendly a lot. But now that I’ve been through some stuff that swept me off the ground and made me doubt everything I once thought was right or true, I’m a completely different person.
Being in a relationship for 3 years and then breaking up made me realize how independent I actually was (no shade towards him, we’re still really good friends). I was stuck in this miserable, stubborn mindset and I didn’t let myself grow. Now that I’ve been single for quite a while I feel like I’ve grown out of my shell and started being more open minded. It was tough at first, not having someone by your side 24/7, losing the thing that made me who I was back then. Getting out of that relationship made me more free, I was able to focus on only myself for the first time in a while. I love pleasing people and making them happy so I sometimes forgot to take some time for myself. Now i realize that my happiness is just as important as everyone else’s and that growing and evolving is a part of being alive. I’m not the same person I was 10 years ago, hell, I’m not even the same person I was a week ago. We all learn something new everyday and we all improve daily.